Focus

Focusing was never a strength of mine. Even before having children I always found myself multitasking and thinking of the next thing to do while doing something else. I have never been bored. I don't even know what that feels like! I've had moments of apathy, but not boredom. Put kids and working-from-home into the picture - focusing is [almost] completely out of reach. 

At any given moment I am thinking of about a dozen different things. The next blog post on each blog where I write, the next meal, the letter to a friend I need to write, how long my infant has been in his diaper, which craft project to do with my toddler, will the weather be nice enough to go out tomorrow, much needed spring cleaning, will I ever print the photos from last year. You get the picture. 

Sometimes I try to force myself to focus and do one thing well. Sometimes it works. Sometimes my toddler screams "Mommy I need to pee!". That pretty much snaps me out of focus in a split second. Focusing with little children is like meditating at a rock concert. Yes, that pretty much puts it into perspective. 

But you know what? I've learned to let go off trying to focus. That's just not my personality. I can't be someone I am not. Perhaps with age and older children it is something I will learn and enjoy. Not now. Right now I need to multitask and it is what I do best. 

Are you good at focusing? How has having children changed that, if at all?

Photo: Icicles outside our front door this winter. For now, that's the only focus I am good at.